First and foremost, I had an absolutely fabulous time in North Carolina. So very much wanted to stay. Tentatively planning another visit during my winter break, but details aren't hammered out yet. I'm sure we'll let you all know



Life has certainly taken an upswing the past few weeks. I've heard, from several different people, that I have Potential. And it isn't the usual "Cinn, you're lazy, get off your ass and do something." It's, "Cinn, you can really BE something. Don't waste it." I guess they're basically the same thing, but one seems to be borne from irritation, and the other...the other is actual caring and concern. I am constantly surprised about what others notice about me, and how, even after being in the state that I've been in, they honestly believe in me, and what I can do.

I also seem to be throwing out vibes lately... I'm getting more compliments, more smiles, more looks, more flirtatious advances. People...

My hair's a wreck
Mascara runs
My feet get dirty, and my skin burns in the sun
My lips, they bleed
But I still sing my song
Takes me a minute to admit it when I'm wrong
Pretty is as pretty does, but pretty's not my thing

This is what you get
This is who I am
Take me now or leave me, anyway you can
Sometimes I slip and fall
But I know where I stand
So if you're thinking about changing my direction
Don't mess wth imperfection

My back is weak
But my will is true
Got good intentions, but I never follow through
I say too much
And don't know when to leave
In case you're looking, that's my heart there on my sleeve
Ego trips and stupid slipups, I'm a wreck, but

This is what you get
This is who I am
Take me now or leave me, anyway you can
Sometimes I slip and fall...

After I handed my ID card to the computer lab guy, he said, "You're the first person that's walked in here smiling. Thank you."