I can't explain how upset and hurt I am at the moment.

She came home with not a word before going to bed.

She woke up without a word said.

I had my usual 9:30AM conference call I was taking from home and planning on getting ready and leaving after the call.

While I was on the call, she got herself packed up and said, "Bye."

I said, "Where are you going?"

"I'm going to Maine."

"I thought we were going together."

"Hold on I'm on the phone."

After a few minutes, she retorted, "How much longer are you going to be?"

I told her, "Sorry for holding you up, just go. It would have been nice if you told me earlier that this was your decision, I would have just gone into the office."

Good for no communication! Hurray for continuing to barrel down the road of continued...

blech, got in big huge fight with Skogafoss, she's now I guess at her mom's.

I guess we're not going to Maine tomorrow then...

I try to live my life without regrets, I have only a small handful. One of which is where we held our wedding. One day I hope to make it up to Skogafoss and actually get married in front of Skogafoss in Iceland. But that isn't why I am writing this...It just comes to mind when I do think of what I've been thinking about.

I have been looking at "old" pictures, not really all that old, but the photos from our wedding day. We didn't do anything traditional for our wedding. There was no photographer, and no videographer. We went as cheap as we could be without skimping or compromising with any family members. In short we paid for our own wedding, accepting no funds from anyone. The only compromise was the location because Skogafoss' father's family was in Tampa and in order to facilitate attending it was not far from them.

The ceremony was at sunset, off Long Boat Key. We chartered a boat and sailed into the Gulf of Mexico.

We had forgotten...

I just got 2 new computer mice.

Another MX Revolution for the office because it totally rocks. And a MX518 for home because I wore out the silicone on the bottom of the cheap Dell one I had for a couple years now.

Now I need a new mouse pad for home, the Fellows one I had with a wrist rest somehow is bubbled on the pad enough that there isn't enough weight to bring it back down so the pointer stops moving even though the mouse keeps going.

Now this is small potatoes in comparison to what is going on with Grandma in Las Vegas. She's been doubling up on her anti-cholesterol meds, and well it's been eating away at her muscle tissue. This has caused some complications with her lower extremities along with her diabetes. What was a fear on Monday night was that she was to lose both her feet due to lack of circulation. She's had dialysis which helped reduce the stress on her kidneys and they are no longer talking about amputation for the moment....

I was at a bar meeting up with an old friend from MTV Networks. We were reminiscing about the old times and meeting some of the new friends.

Earlier today I was already very wheezy. I've been wheezy for the past few days as the humidity has risen. It has really slowed me down. Last week I started taking the asthma meds I had stopped for several months because I could tell I was already feeling the tightening of the airways. Slight but I still could tell.

I excused myself from the party, I really wanted to stay but not drinking and not feeling so well wasn't good at all. My albuterol inhaler wasn't doing anything after puff after puff. It was time to get home to the portable nebulizer.

I was having a hard time walking home, it wasn't a far walk home, but I was straining even as slow as I was going.

We took a cab home, I stopped at the lobby to chat up the neighbor as the cab's ACgave me a little respite.

When...