I am better off without him, right? I just need to hear it. I wish I felt it.

He could not break it off with the other woman. It is totally 100% over. I told him to get his phone off mine, get his own car insurance and his name will be removed from the house deed as soon as I can. I will start my own bank account. I told him there will never be another chance. EVER.

It fuckin hurts. Again. Why did I even let this happen?

Damn it. and damn him.

Can I go home and have a drink now?

I have to remember this one and not just for today, but for always.

As I was chatting with my sister, I told her about my new eyeglasses. We both kinda wondered if the problems with my eyes could be causing my fatigue. So I went to WebMD and looked up astigmatism, this is what the doctor said I have. and this is what I found, and I didn't have to search far to find it:

What Are the Symptoms of Astigmatism?

People with undetected astigmatism often experience headaches, fatigue, eyestrain and blurred vision at all distances.

Do I experience headaches? Yes, on a daily basis
Fatigue? ask anyone in chat - I usually fall asleep at the computer before 10pm, and I struggle to keep my head up when I am driving home from work.
Eyestrain? without a doubt, all the time
Blurred vision at all distances? yep, got that too. Can't read street signs and I had to increase the font on my computers.

So maybe *some* of my fatigue is caused by this. It does kinda coincide with my last eye exam (2001),...

I don't normally pay attention to my horoscopes, but this one is dead on. I am *not* feeling good about certain things and it is tearing me apart trying to figure out what it means and how to handle it.

I cannot let him get to me. I have to wait and see what happens. He wants to work things out. But first, he has to get rid of her, he has to get the car back from her. I am not too pleased with his plan on getting it back. It pisses me off and makes me want to cry. He bought tickets to the American Idol concert, the plan was to take our daughter. She is really looking forward to it and I think she expects it to be just her and daddy. Little does she know (because he hasn't told her yet) that he got 4 tickets. Her and her daughter are going. He tried to tell me that he doesn't know why he got 4 tickets. Bullshit. I am NOT stupid. He says he didn't know if she would be able to come or not when he got the tickets, and that if she didn't, he'd get other people to go. Ok, so his plan. She drives out here for the concert, stays at his mom's (who probably does not know about this either), he drives back to Ohio with her and then returns to NY in the car. He has not told her this at all,...