The people that have the largest egos are the highest on the pole.

Isn't this how things always work? I mean you got to that position somehow didn't you?

I think the problem is that no one ever put you in your place. Instead, they inflated your ego with false truths.

So who then is to blame?

The king or the kingdom??

I think that was the year I joined TFP. It was so long ago now, I can't really be sure. I was here through a couple of site crashes, so we all had to start from scratch. Literally most everything was gone.

I was one of the first female members, and I think like the second or third to actually be a moderator. I have come to this site nearly every day for close to NINE YEARS. That is saying quite a lot in the realm of online forums.

When I first started here I was in a serious relationship and madly in love for the first time in my life. I was living with my boyfriend and completely naive about a lot of things in general. I found a place here to make friends who would later come to my aid when the same guy broke my heart. I also found a place to find myself and express parts of me I wasn't free to show in my real life.

I became somewhat close to Halx. We talked all the time online and eventually on the phone. I really liked him a lot and valued...

I remember when I used to sit around and dream what it would be like to be married and have a family and to have finally found my soul mate in life. It's so funny how our mind is constantly fucking us over though.

Now I sit around and wonder what it would be like to be single and having multiple sex partners. I guess I am not the only one thinking this.

Sometimes I feel like my husband is everything I could ask for, and truly he is a wonderful man. I have no complaints that are even worth mentioning. Other times I really really miss having a "bad boy" and I yearn for the risky behavior my old life brought with it.

Most of the time though I feel like I just exist on a day to day basis. Being a mother and a wife has become the definition of who I am.

So my period should be arriving Sunday-ish.

Part of me hopes so, part of me hopes not.

We have been watching a lot of videos of my daughter when she was an infant and I have "baby fever" right now wanting another one.

Then there is the part of me who is starting to enjoy the freedom that having a older child brings. I can definitely do more with her now that she is almost 2.

My husband is feeling about like I am on this subject. He is content to wait a little longer to have another though. Being that I just turned 34, that wait can't be too long.

So we will see what the next few days brings

Attention Whores.

I hate them.

"Look at ME I am so hot, no one can resist!!"

Please leave me some more comments to reaffirm my hotness.



DISTURBING

Oh yeah, and one more thing.

If my mother sends me one more damn anti Obama email I am going to hurt someone. My morning now consists of hitting "delete" a million times to clear my inbox. Oh and she is getting tricky about it now too. Sometimes the title of the email is deceptive. Like today I got an email about a Baby Deer born through C-Section premature with bunch of cute deer pictures.

Surprise

Mom and to go and ruin it with this nice little line "Nice pictures. Too bad people will do all this to save a deer and let a baby die on the table. That's how obama wants it."


Ok I am going to go jump off my roof now.