I imagine that some people are
Unforgettable
That feelings
Will never leave
That time
No matter how fast
Or slow it passes
The pain will be
As fresh as the second
The knife sunk in
That music can still
Bring it back
Like it was just there
In your grasp
A few notes
Soon I'm slipping
Into that old routine
You
Me
Us
Then

So I saved my journal and it is safe and sound on my computer There was just too much good stuff on there to let it go.

After much debate I traded in my Mustang for this sweet new ride. My mustang was practically cherry and I really hated to see her go. It just wasn't practical with a baby and also it had a very poor safety rating for rear passengers. I couldn't knowingly drive my child around in something that unsafe.

I wish things were the old way
Emotional
Out of control
High and intoxicated
With him
Almost
Just almost
Giving in
If I could go backwards
I would have
That way I wouldn't regret
Never
Knowing what he felt like
Hard
And inside of me

I got to play in the ocean today
The water was 85 degrees
The waves were perfect
My bikini top got knocked off in the process
Didn't matter
I was way too far out in the sea
You would have had to have a telescope
To see my A's
My best friend was with me
We screamed when the huge waves were coming
I ate way to much bad for me food
Then tonight I inhaled a daiquiri
Mainly because my husband made me mad