A Distribution of Attractors











Looking for you desire pulls through me like a knotted razor that catches then hurtles me across spaces where each thing empties onto permutations along the rolling of time through the opening outward & the tumbling away.














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The box kite floating high over the marsh and the string, the downward trailing arc of which you are following across an abstract blue field past curious geometrical forms of white and yellow & a cloud of mechanical birds wobbling their machine trajectories through modalities of falling, some mirroring the arc of the string, others tracing angular shapes against the receding blue of your visual field & you choose one and its falling toward the point of its absorption & across the marsh surface a human shape separating from a cube in the ochre and green of the grasses carries two long poles red at each end then stops; two red flags blur hesitate blur hesitate a message mediated by distance and distortion, deciphering and distraction, static and memory and the forms are gone. Traveling back toward the memory bird you find yourself disoriented.











The box kite floated high over the...

1 must be in this place 1 in its 1-place.
2 must be in this place 1 in its 2-place.
3 must be in this place 1 in its 3-place.

In 3-place there can be 1 3 not 3. 1 3 not 3.
3 1s go in 1-place.
3 is not 3 1s.
3 is not 1 1 1.
1 goes in 1-place.
1-place is an essence place.
1 stays the same.

3 3s in 3-place is not 1 9 in 9-place. What is 3 stays 3.

1 1 1 1 1 is 1. What is 1 stays 1.
2 2 2 2 2 is 2. What is 2 stays 2.

1 1 in 1-place means that 1-place is 1-place.
1 2 in 2-place means that 2-place is 1-place.
1 3 in 3-place means that 3-place is 1-place.
1 stays the same.

1 is not 2 is not 3.
Each is a position on a wheel.

i set out to make a series of 26 pieces and now find myself at 13.

i cannot tell if writing this is a healthy activity or not for me. sometimes i think it is causing me unnecessary pain, but it seems that to make something i have to be in the place so i have something real-seeming to reprocess. i can't just make things up. projections as to the world rooted in particularities of an experience or situation seem different to me from similar things simply imagined and staged. but sometimes i wish i could just dream things up rather than spending my time dreaming about specific things, specific people.
but i enjoy the work required to hollow that out in writing so that anyone could in theory project themselves into that space into that situation.
and the moving through it in real life gives the writing it's grain.

but this is a hard nut, the project. i can't post it here because of the formatting trouble. and it needs to be black letters...