i set out to make a series of 26 pieces and now find myself at 13.
i cannot tell if writing this is a healthy activity or not for me. sometimes i think it is causing me unnecessary pain, but it seems that to make something i have to be in the place so i have something real-seeming to reprocess. i can't just make things up. projections as to the world rooted in particularities of an experience or situation seem different to me from similar things simply imagined and staged. but sometimes i wish i could just dream things up rather than spending my time dreaming about specific things, specific people.
but i enjoy the work required to hollow that out in writing so that anyone could in theory project themselves into that space into that situation.
and the moving through it in real life gives the writing it's grain.
but this is a hard nut, the project. i can't post it here because of the formatting trouble. and it needs to be black letters...