August 7th

I'm restarting my diary/journal/blog in the hopes of getting a little more introspection and thought into my life once more. I'm beginning to get a little apathetic, letting life happen to me rather than making things happen for myself.

I was reading back in my journal and there's more than a few times I cringed or chuckled at what I was going through. Growing up is so muddled; it's hard to see the big picture when you're part of it.

Anyways I am in a bit of a rut at the moment. This summer I did nothing really but work, come home, and play videogames while waiting for school to start again. I've gone out a few times but nothing spectacular, I need to be more social again. It's a natural swing towards more interaction with others that I recognize, so I'll just go with it and talk to new people.

While my full time job is great and a good reference, they have no part time positions for me so I am quitting by the end of this week and applying for part time positions with a retail or gas station or some work that isn't stressful and where I might get some studying done if business is slow. My friend suggested coin-op wash attendant; but i'm not sure if they even stay open in winter. I'm open to suggestions, it'll likely just end up being a retail spot somewhere near to my house.

Also there's a gaming convention, PAX, that i'm going to in three weeks. I've been planning for this for months but some unexpected expenses have come up (car, medical) that ate most of my cash. I'm not entirely sure how i'm going to pay for all of it. It's going to be tight, and switching to part time is not going to help. In addition it's from the 27th-31th which will be an issue because my school starts on the 25th! i'll miss my thursday and friday classes and possibly the monday class as well. I'll talk to my prof about it and see if I can't get some material ahead of time.

I guess that's everything, i don't want to burn out on this so i'll add stuff tomorrow.