I've whisked up an interesting new ritual that takes place around 3:00 am every morning now. At 3 am, I leave my house with a sweater and khakis on, put on some Q via podcast, and spark a joint.

Now, I realize that "drug use" is frowned upon. And I'm not an advocate for weed. I realize that I'm seeing the same sunset sober and high. But walking through my small, upper-middle class, quiet neighborhood in a fairly small city at that time in the morning is cleansing anyways. Put some Jian on top of that, with a pinch of sunrise and an immense amount of birds chirping to high heaven. It's pretty spectacular.

My life is pretty spectacular.

[continuation...]

Personal belief is dangerous. Not in its intended form, but in it's current, bastardized form. The one that governs us as a species, that divides and creates individualists; a series sub-species of human beings based on self-created philosophy and self-generated systems of belief. Stuff we, individually, commonly hold true. Stuff we don't challenge because we are not only allowed but encouraged to "love ourselves conditionally in the public eye and no one has the right to separate me from my beliefs". Believing something has a place in your personal life but in the public life it DOES NOT. The laws and regulations set forth by man must better mankind, not a man alone. Otherwise the system will constantly be at war with itself because, as I stated before, belief is subjective and therefore static. Ideas can change but the principle behind them remain the same. Let that go.

When I discuss living through experience and not commonly...

This is something I posted in the thread "Zeitgeist" but it is something I've been working over through personal work for a bit now. I thought posting it in my blog felt more natural.

[Sorry if this becomes repetitive or redundant]

I don't subscribe to inherently restrictive social conclusions and I’ve done so for a while now. There is a consistency of ignorance and backwards thinking in preconceived ideologies that too many people adhere to in society. Things like faith masked as fact.

The greatest issue for me in this movement is where to start because it's a paradox. To defeat establishment we must first destroy preconception and out-dated ideas. But, to defeat this preconceived social movement people need to witness the failure of establishment.

The longer I think about this the more frustrated I get with a (created term) "self-sustaining dependence". We've created a mechanism that runs without our help...

Winter '05 - Ra Ra Riot.

Orange lamps shine by willow bay
Ice covers from the lake to where I lay
In a state
In which I dream

If you were here
Winter wouldn't pass quite so slow
And if you were here
Then i'd have a choice to live not be alone

But instead I sit atop the crest
Looking down on the valley where the dead rest
And every morning I wake beside myself

But I digress

If you were here
Winter wouldn't pass quite so slow
And if you were here
Then i'd have a choice to live not be alone

If you were here
Winter wouldn't pass quite so slow
And if you were here
Then i'd have a choice to live not be alone

If you were here
Winter wouldn't pass quite so slow
And if you were here
Then i'd have a choice to live not be alone

[an explanation: In the winter of...

Don't Watch Me Dancing - Little Joy

Margarita has a strange appeal
sways between suitors on a broke heel
Of course her desires always messed up
She rather be scarred than scarred with love

In conversation she often content
Customs builds customs that have all dead-ends
She found her courage in a change of scene
The Sunday social would be short it's queen

All her best years spent distracted
By this tired re-enactments
With the right stuff
she would try her chances
Somewhere else

There he is a step outside of view
Presiding the words he hope she might persuit
Night upon night of faithful lie shore*
He only convinces legs across the floor

Please don't watch me dancing
oh no don't watch me dancing

Something changes when she glances
I'll have to teach you what romance is
With the right stuff...